Jill
Hi, I am 23 years old and for the past year and a half my life has been turned upside down and inside out due to an anxiety disorder. Well actually the doctors are still not sure exactly what it is, I have been told it is everything from GAD to Major Depression to Bipolar Disorder. I have major attacks where nothing makes sense and I feel outside of myself. Sometimes the fact I can see and the human condition itself is so weird to me. The problem is, this isn't mania, because I remember everything, and I am very aware that these feelings are not normal. I have been on zoloft, risperidone, moclobemide, serazone, paxil, and nothing has worked. Now I am on epival, which is supposed to be for epilepsy, but is said to work for some psychiatric disorders. On the outside, no one would be able to tell that there is anything wrong with me. I cannot sleep, when I do, I usually have nightmares, or it is drug induced. I never feel totally normal, I am unable to just get comfortable. I constantly have this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I have read everything I can about anxiety and panic, but I can't seem to find anything that works. I am only 23 and I have already tried to kill myself because of this disorder, and I am so tired. I am tired of fighting, it has sucked the life right out of my body and soul. If anyone has any suggestions that they have used please let me know, I am open to anything. Thanks Jill