Debbie
I was anerexic. I struggled with it for 7 years. You need to get help to try to understand why you are doing this. Then you can work on it. It is very hard. I was actually hospitalized 3 different times. Even though I am ok now I still have times when I feel that panic. I believe that once you have this horrible thing you always have it. It's a matter of you controlling it instead of it controlling you. Please get help and good luck.