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I too have suffered (about 7 years ago) with eating disorders. I have also been diagnosed with OCD and I am also married to the air force. The thing that really turned me around was 2 fold. My psychologist at the time told me that if i didn't gain more weight i would never be able to have kids... well, I really wanted kids so i started eating. Another reason was the love of god. I knew he accepted me and thought I was beautiful so I had to start seeing myself in his eyes. If you need help... you need to see someone, a psychologist, whatever... if you have tricare insurence and most military insurances, they allow you to go to 3 appointement without authorization... otherwise get authorization from your doctor and GO!!! you may need medication (they put me on zoloft) but that is ok... I am now off of it and VERY HAPPY.. there is hope but it is a long road to recovery... I still struggle but with the lord's help we can do it!!! I am now the proud parent of a baby girl and happily married... good luck and you are NOT alone